Thursday, June 16, 2016

July 9th

We will be meeting at R-Bar STL on Chouteau on Saturday July 9, 2016 at 3:00 p.m.  We will have a very short meeting, then dinner there - then we will do a little bar hop to Just John's and Attitudes!  Come on and have a good time!


Saturday, January 16, 2016

Early Morning WaKing

Ugh.  I hate it when I can't sleep and my thoughts are galloping through my mind.

Sometimes I have such low self-esteem, I think I can't have a relationship that lasts and lasts...10 years is pretty good, however, I'm still sad it ended.

I get to thinking that something is wrong with me, and it makes me want to eat more and more.

I have so much self doubt, that I can't seem to stick on a good habit path very long.  I'm always thinking that I can't do it, or I'm not worth it.

I'm trying to change the way I think, how I view myself and my world, how I perceive things to be.  It's not easy, especially when it is so ingrained in me for so many years.

All I can do is keep trying, telling myself I can do it, be positive and just do it.


Thursday, November 26, 2015

Monday, March 23, 2015

Feeling Alone

Today isn't a good day for me.  I tried reaching out and the world has gone silent.  I feel I'm being punished today.  I'm all alone in a depression again.

I hate feeling this way.  I hate the loneliness. I hate feeling helpless.  I feel like I hate myself again.

I'm just...